Some things are just meant for myself

Guys that dont give a damn get the one they want.guys that gave everything out gets nothing


Waited Wished False hopes and in the end Dissapointments

Feelings faded

wew,seems like i've been feeling kinda down for the moment.

I think i just think too much LOL.HAHA.anyways.

Going on with my life instead of letting people control and manipulate my life.the things i should be doing

OWHH YEAH.my dad bought a LongMan book about english.he is Understanding and tearing the book apart*literally* epicness-.-.

He can really finish the bok and study it for a few days without stopping.Cool in a way but somehow i think why cant i be like him?as in the studying part.that'd be like effin cool ait?:D.a dude that reads book 24/7.HAHAHAAH.

im tired.chaos.badminton and pool ahead:D

After reading your blog

After reading your blog.

How silly of me thinking of you dont have ANY problems.apparenly you have been hanging on by yourself.

I thought i know you.Thats just a Small Tiny Piece of You.

WELLLLLLLLLL

GUESS WHAT?

IM GONNA EXPLORE YOU.To Somewhere deep in your heart.Something like Sitting a submarine into your blood vessels.and dive into your heart.Your Soul.

I wont promise you anything.NO PROMISES!Cause im going to surprise you someday

And

Make you feel that life is BEAUTIFUL.

It Is a Place You Worth Living For.A Paradise.

It may will not be always as we wanted but You're Here because you're a miracle.

You're a Gift,Miracle.Something that will never be replaced.

So Please.

Treat yourself like you're treating you;re HUNGABLE CAT!*in a way im kinda jealous':p

Other than that.

You Will feel that Earth is a place that you worth living for.You know why?

CAUSE YOU WORTH IT LOVE!:D

Things will sort out with your mom.Everything does.Just please sort things out by telling her things.talk to her more.let the 'Chemical Bond' between you and your mom has a force of attraction that cant be breaken down easily even it is up to 1000000000000 degres celsius.

All i want to say is.Your mom loves you

We love you

Your friends love you

The one's you're with loves you

And Everyone You Know Loves You Too.

One last tiny Thing That i want to tell you

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DONT EVER CUTTING KILLING HANGING DROWNING OR WHATEVER F*** YOU THINK OF HARMING YOURSELF.

Just Please.If you May,If and Only If you Let Me Know When You're Down.

I'll be There For You

Dedicated to Chan Mei Sun

With TONS of LOVE

By Chien :)

By the way 1TON = 1000KG

So thats a lot okay?:P

Hypocrite

Hypocrite-People who does things that they themself cant do it but they assume and want people to do it.Themself sometimes doesnt realize it.

I feel like a hypocrite by calling people hypocrite now.AHAH.

Guess everyone is just like me huh?You just dont notice it

For the One's i love i will

Clarify myself,all of my deepest secret in my life.Everything.The one's you can ask i will find a way to answer you

With one Condision

Can i be apart of your life and let me into your heart?

I Wont cant promise i will be with you forever but i WILL do my best when IM with you.So please?

What will it be?:D.

Seems like im going to use these questions to ask you after my trials SPM 85 days left.....

Tick Tock Tick Tock Tick Tock.Every second it is getting nearer and nearer.

That kinda excites me in a way:P.

Alone at night.Thinking of your smile.your scent you hair smell.

I miss you

The Truth that im going to let you know

Everyone always says that i want a relationship without lies,Without Deception and all the things that a human doesn't want.those things that affact their interest.

BUT

Have they really think about what they want is just so ridiculous and Never can be done to someone.ESSPECIALLY someone that YOU 'love'.im not saying There ain't someone like that but There is just SOOOO few cases of that happening.We see people breaking up and telling people that the partner of theirs change or whatever BLA BLA BLA.Do they ever think of people who they are with is JUST TRYING TO IMPRESS THEM?

If you want to know what a person is thinking or maybe what is his or her's attitude.It's a matter a fact ITS HARD already.Even the best friend of yours lets you take time to figure out what they are,what they are thinking.So come to think of it.

What if the person is trying to IMPRESS YOU?Have you think of that?maybe that it's impossible to know them 'THEM' as in the real personalities of theirs.Maybe you do get to know them.WHEN you are going to breakup/breakaway/stay AWAY from them.You will only find out who are they.

So do care of those people that trying to impress you or whatever word you're gonna use for it.But yeah.

People fills people up.As in if you like that person.you fill them up about what you want them to be.in another ways.if you DONT like em'.you'll just fill them up with negative thoughts and you will HARDLY EVER second doubt yourself about who they are.*You will be assuming they ARE GOOD.Or the negative side.They are Not good*

Dont come into conclusion so fast because what we ASSUME Maybe wrong and try to be more open minded :).Sometimes you just DONT know them well enough whether they are good or bad.

A Partner

A Partner is a person that you could count on,to love,to like,to share,to know more,to think about them,to go through things when one of them are in pain or vain.

For me i found a few of them.But they treat me as a friend.Only.Absolute Guy friend.HAHA.

Maybe i didn't say it out loud bacause i'm afraid it would tear our friendship apart.

I was once told that when you put 'what' and 'if' seperately,it's not harmful.But when you put these two words together.It maybe a life changing word that makes you afraid to make decision or it would prevent you from making wrong decision.

In my case,i'm unable to give out the info or whatever to let the one's i like,i really care for.A clear picture,That i like You.It happened a few times.I'm just a coward that is afraid to tell what i really want.

Thinking too much about the consequences,afraid of What if it doesn't work?What would happen?What am i suppose to do?These are the questions that always go through an run around my mind.

Perhaps i would be a lonely guy that can't find a person to share my stories With.Maybe i do have people to share m stories with.but i wanted to be a real special person to share with.Someone who really care.Well.If i would find one.It must be my lucky day.=))

Jealousy

What's jealousy?

What is jealousy?Why is he jealous of me when i'm pretty sure that you won't be mine and she is your's forever.If you treat her nicely.

Committed to the relationship you having between you and her?

Why don't i feel that way?

Why don't i feel the way you felt towards me?

i think i know the fact that she really likes you and nothing can change it.of course you Still can change it.as a boyfriend.that doesn't understand Her.

I don't feel sorry for her of you treating her that way.Cause you're you.and She likes you that way.

Just Stop treating her that way.as in all you think about is yourself and you don't care about her feelings.i feel sorry for her.to have a boyfriend like you but what done is done.She really likes you.

i like her too.in fact i like many people.but Not all of them gives me the feel she gave me.a hormony feeling that i can tell her everything.That i can count on her.But what to do?Haha.she's yours.Please treat her better and think more of Us than just Me,I or whatever of a selfish bartard would do

I hid my true feelings

I Wouldn’t tell this to my guy friends cause I know that the way they think and my way of thinking ain’t the same.they don’t really understand me.but still I will thank them for supporting all these times.brought me out when im vulnerable.i wouldn’t tell them because they say that you’re a bitch and I wouldn’t believe that.well you know what?you maybe are.you are just overprotective.Overprotecting yourself that causes to lose friends one by one.Well.i will not give you any advise and what-so-ever.COS I Don’t care anymore.I’m free.=).I’m better off without you.=)

I will still have to say what I need to say.i was in deep depression when you said nothing about it.made me so worried that did I’ve made a wrong choice in saying that out.i was hurt.a real deep scar that has made me a different person.a more experience person that believes in love.But I just need to find the right person.

Im greatful that you didn’t accept me that time.Thanks

I must say.you are a good actor.

I must say you’re a good actor.lie about your feeling.your everything.your past.you wouldn’t tell me the truth.Maybe you didn’t do that but you made me feel that way.so I guess its not my fault?

You didn’t clarified yourself made me suffer.i liked you,I loved you but all of that are just memories that shouldn’t be kept anymore.A painful past for me.so I think I shall just forgot about it all right?=)

If a person will tka your advise meant?

If a person will take your advise meant?

Meant he think he aint prefect so he will take you advise?
He treat you as a friend,so he will think thorugh after you tell him
He’s a selfish bastard or self-centered dude.

So in a way if he don’t take your advise meant he thinks he is prefect he is good enough and he don’t have any weaknesses?No comment

So he doesn’t treat you as a friend,he may treat you as a friend but he thinks he is so much better than you and you don’t have the power,the reason to judge him?Although he may not think that way but the way he act made people fell that way.how??what to do?can’t get any advise into his head.Don’t care

OR

He is a self centered and selfish bastard huh?
Say you don’t care but just wont wanna think about the matter.it may change you to a better person.you wont listen too right?No point of saying

Nothing is wasted.that’s what im trying to tell myself.i wrote all these cause I care but my sincere got ignore by you.so I just have to be responsible to myself.tell myself.THAT I WONT WANNA BE A PERSON LIKE YOU.=)

Someone in my life that has changed me

Thanks to somebody,someone that was in my life.

Without you,I wouldn’t know and feel.How it hurts when a person really gives in their feelings

It tore me apart..But I managed to get over you in time for not letting me to get hurt by you anymore.you may not know.but it did hurt me=/

I realize that I have lost confident in everything when I said to myself that I have to get over you and forget about you.Between the period of time.things changed a lot around me.everyone is getting together while I’m still stuck here.alone.in the dark and there’s no light to break the darkness.i don’t know how to approach girls anymore.not like last time the way I did.Me,I’m missing by the time you made me misunderstood.when I finally found out I misunderstood.things are already too late to turn back and.well.maybe we’re just not meant together.or you don’t even want to show some feelings.i don’t know how you feel.what you thinking of all times.i only can see you watch you and even if I asked you.you wouldn’t answer me honestly.You always answer things like you’re hiding something.don’t want to let me know.this is how I felt.maybe you don’t have anything to hide but yeah.i felt that way.=)

I just need to know about one thing.Please answer me honestly.Have you ever Loved me or Liked me?I’m desperate for an answer.so Please,if you’re reading this.let me know the facts.i want to live a life with no regrets

Thanks for leaving me

Thanks for leaving at this kind of rate.That seriously caused me pain.I’m in vain.

Thanks for leaving me like a piece of crap with some stupid excuse.Saying that afraid of me.Scared I’m still angry butyou have no idea what im into.so please.during that time you could just txt me or whatever.you think you’re the only one who could be hurt only?You self-centered bastard..

BUT

Thanks for leaving me again.

Now I’ve moved on and found a better person than you.

A person who shows love and caring.=).

I Wont hate you.just telling myself to accept the past and forget about it.there’s nothing left to care about.Comparing to you?I didn’t know why did I ever chose you or even care about you

I know you almost 2 years.txting you everyday.But you know what.

I KNOW NOTHING ABOUT YOU.

Im kind of fed up of your attitude

The things you don’t like then you keep criticize people.but then,when you do the same thing.why don’t people treat you this way?cos they understand.everyone aint the same.so you cant expect people do the same way as you right?

The value of judgement is aint the same so you cant expect to follow you all the way right?Just you made a promise then people can’t do what they like.what they want?it’s a free world you know

Perhaps I don’t have the ‘balls’ to tell you.cause you’re just too judgemental.=/.
That makes people don’t want to open up to you anymore
I thnk the problem you having now is overconfident.be humble.and people may love you like you.
Well.tho I know it aint gonna work.but im just clearifeing myself.Not to be a person like you.

Hypocrite.